Sunday Phlegm In the Mud

Oh shit. It’s all wrong. I’m stuck. Why is it the simplest melody, the most basic lyric, can be  so hard to put down in the studio. What earlier had effortlessly poured out on to the college ruled, 11 and 1/2 by what ever sized spiral notebook, then into the microphone, is now all of a sudden sticking its heels in the mud? And I mean platform heel STUCK!

Now, it feels this recording project is just work, void of glamor and late night, bedtime, make believe Grammy acceptance speeches for song of the year…stuck. Why? Because it just is. Flashback to 10th grade ceramics class with instructor/artist/bon vivant/scarf wearing/ bearded,  Stan Grosse…and the 8 inch cylinder club…

Stan Grosse was a teacher first. Incredible artist of many mediums…paint, jewelry, collage, clay, photography…but in my opinion a teacher first. It was an accident that I ended up in his ceramics class in the first place, but that first day of class I immediately noticed I was in a room of older, very hip, miscreants. I instinctively knew I was in the right place. It smelled right. The rule in the class was if you wanted to make pots on the wheel you had to throw an 8″ cylinder first. Throw = take a lump of clay, center it on a spinning disc = wheel, thrust your thumbs into the center of the lump and  make a hole, and then with fingers from one hand on the inside of the hole you lust made, and fingers from the other hand on the outside of the lump, you pull the spinning piece of mud up, up, up, until it has risen 8 inches. No easy thing to do first time out…but after you do it a few hundred times you can get that piece of clay to rise to the occasion. You can get that piece of mud to do wondrous things!

Having finally succeeding in mastering what I thought to be the eight inch cylinder, I quickly called Stan over. He always had his 12 inch ruler at the ready in his back pocket. Yes. My cylinder was just over 8 inches…Stan looked at me and said, “congratulations, you’re in the club.” He then looked down at my wet, 8 inch cylinder, and squashed it. Just flattened it. I was horrified! Then looking back up at me he said, ” if you can make one 8 inch cylinder, you can make a hundred.”

I was 15 at the time. Now, 42 years later, I still remember that moment, it has never left me. I probably threw a hundred or so pots in the following years of high school, and a few more in the one year of college after that, before I dropped out and moved to London to pursue music. But I still hear Stan’s voice…if you can do it one time you can do it a hundred times

I can hear that voice now in the studio…all the grief, the anxiety and frustration, the uncertainty of undoing something only to have to redo something…well, letting all that get to you is a colossal waste of energy and time and just leaves you hanging with one foot on the edge and one foot off. Dangling over some abyss that we all are going to end up in the bottom of anyway. If  I have to redo the song again then better get started now. It’s something I have to do, want to do, and it may make the song better. That’s all. Regroup and rethink…listen another way, stop holding the damn thing too tight lest it end up suffocating and withering away to a “B side” , or a K-Mart, songs of the lost decade, what ever happened to, compilation CD…let the song find it’s form again…stop standing in the way of it, stand side by side with it, and just get on with it.

You get on with it and go for broke. The changes around you don’t seem to be slowing down any and it’s not like you can wait for ever for the world to come to you. It’s you and the studio, you and the trust you have in your own belief that you can do this.

So fans, back in the studio this week, looking like I might be getting close to finishing this thing.  New York City bound in June with my CD in my pocket, guitar in my hand, and great big shot of hope in my belly!

Why not?

Have a wonderful Sunday everyone…




Sunday In The Park With Tens of Thousands of Irish People And Those Wanting To Be Irish h

Why I decided to go downtown to get a haircut in the middle of the  St Patrick’s Day Parade will have to remain a mystery.  “Tens of thousands of spectators” is how the news described it.  And just who decides what the  “official estimates”  are? I was there. My official estimate: lot’s of people. I had to walk 3 blocks to just cross the street…took a good half hour for that…then I noticed this really great marching band passing by and had to stop for that…and then when I did manage to cross the street I realized I was standing right in front of Harrington’s…all the shoulder to shoulder jostling  with the crowds and making my way through the revelry, well, I worked up quite a thirst and just had to stop. I mean what could I do? What would you do? Naturally one quick shot turned in to two, then three…after 4 I must say…I was Irish and  my hair looked just fine…

Detours are the best things that can happen to you in life.  They are.  Don’t even bother trying to argue the point.  So many years ago my day trip to Brighton landed me in Bath…wrong train, right time. Instead of a walk on the Brighton Peer, I met Ursula Kline in a pub in Bath, who in turn introduced me to Adrian Dunning, Ian Ward, and Stephen (last name escapes me) when I returned to London…then, all of us ending up in Spichern, France…like I said, don’t bother arguing the point. Stay with me here…

The reason I started this blog was to describe what it is like to record a record…CD…what ever…the day to day of the studio experience, ups and downs…try to relate to you, the sheer boredom at times, the waiting to set up the mics…this one here that one there…no?…try this, how about this…but also share with you those breakthrough moments when you are riding a Maverick and nothing can get in your way.  Those moments when you are so on top of the fucking world, flying through auditory bliss you forget all that went before and you couldn’t give two fucks about what’s going to happen next…you cannot plan this.  You can hope it might happen, but plan for it? Never.

The reason I went back into the studio after a 10+ year (ok, 15 year) absence was because out of the blue I started writing songs again.  For so long I had nothing to say musically until one day,  for some reason, I found a voice, my voice…again. It’s that simple.  My acoustic guitar scratchings and lyrical attempts to connect with something took flight and it’s been a non stop race ever since. Mid life crises? Absolutely! Do I care that people rub that tired explanation for erratic behavior, and the unwavering belief in the impossible in may face? Fuck No! The music will speak for itself.  The music will speak for itself…

In the end, the music really will speak for itself. Like it or not, I can’t do much about that. But damn…this has sure been one hell of a ride. And it’s not over yet.

Back in the studio this Wednesday…re-doing what I thought I had already finished…just  another little detour…and you know what they say about detours…

luv ya all!